It’s been three days since I last saw her. The thought of storming into her cabin and kissing the hell out of her did cross my mind a lot of times, but I didn’t want to complicate things.
Last time, I tried to explain her but she didn’t listen.
This time she has to come. This time she has to take the initiative. It’s a high time now, she has to get over of her insecurities and If she wants us to mind our own business then, that’s what I’m doing right now and I’ll do.
“Hey, Sidharth.” I heard Soha’s voice and looked up to see her standing in front of me.
Did she enter my cabin without my permission? Or I was so busy that I didn’t hear the knock?
“I knocked a few times, but you didn’t respond, So I came to check on you.” She said and looked down at me smiling. I noticed she is looking different than usual. She is wearing a low cut blouse that showed her cleavage and it is so unlike her.
Come on! I know her since childhood. She’s not like this.
“Hey, Soha,” I said.
“Are you busy?” She asked coming close to me, touching my shoulder lightly and I gave her a tight smile.
“Well, not really,” I said, letting out a huge breath.
You’re in mess dude!
Something is definitely not right.
“Umm…I was wondering… Umm… If you like to go out with me sometime? Um… I mean it’s been long we had to spend time… So..” She asked, playing with the ends of her hair.
“And I knew it.” I mentally palmed my face.
I need to stop her!
“Umm… I’m sorry, Soha, you’re my friend and I don’t want to give you any false hope. I like someone.” I uttered and saw her eyes widened in utter shock.
“I don’t know what exactly is going between us but one thing I’m sure about is that she’s special.” I continued, scratching my forehead, hoping that she would understand and let this go.
“I didn’t know that,” She mumbled, not meeting my gaze and I stood up from my seat.
“We will always be good friends, Soha. And trust me, you’re a very nice girl, it’s just that I never saw you in that way,” I explained, and she nodded with a small smile even though her face fell a bit.
“Ummm… Thank you for being honest.” She replied and pulled me into a hug.
“Thank you for understanding my feelings and not breaking our friendship.” She continued and I hugged her back.
“Feelings are feelings, Soha. I’m sure you’ll find your someone special soon,” I pulled back from her, ruffling her hair.
“Hehe, okay.” She giggled and continued, “now, I need to go, my friend because my boss is damn serious when it comes to work.” I nodded, chuckling a bit.
As she walked out of my cabin, I saw Shehnaaz standing there. Before I could say something I saw her, moving swiftly to her cabin.
Did she see everything?
Fuck, she must have assumed wrong and the worst.
After that morning, we didn’t talk properly and this happened.
Shit, shit, shit, idiot Sidharth.
Why the hell, she had to appear now?
Didn’t she get time before?
I don’t know what came in my mind and I decided to follow her, keeping my ego aside.
I can’t give up on her because I’m craving to be with her and bring a smile on her face of real happiness.
I entered her cabin and found her back facing me. She is wearing a blue dress which is hugging every inch of her body and her hair was swept to one side, showing off her slender neck. I want nothing but kiss her and hug her from behind.
God, I missed her so much.
“Shehnaaz,” I called out and she turned around, not meeting my gaze.
It seemed like she already knew I would follow her.
Trust me, I don’t know why I followed her but I felt like I needed to explain what happened back out there and maybe break the ice a little.
“It’s Miss. Kapoor,” She uttered, looking into my eyes, making me roll my eyes.
“Look, Soha is just my friend. It’s not what you think–” I started while she let out a small chuckle.
“Mr Shukla, why are you so full of yourself? I really don’t care whatever is going on in your personal life. I like to be professional, so please keep this in your mind.” She said, her eyes filled with anger.
“Professional? Like seriously? Pathetic Joke, Shehnaaz.” I said, throwing my hands up in the air while she just folded her arms in front of her chest and looked at me with her piercing gaze.
“You should leave and do your work, Mr Shukla.” She replied firmly while I ran my hands through my hair in frustration.
Who’s the boss here? She or me?
“Are you fucking serious?” I asked in disbelief while she chewed on her bottom lip, nodding slightly, not meeting my gaze. I went closer to her and stood in front of her, only a few inches apart. We can hear each other beat.
“Do you want me to leave?” I asked again after moving down and closer to her face and she remained silent, staring down.
“Look, if this time, I walk out of this door, ” I whispered, lifting her chin to make her meet my gaze, “I’m never coming back again and whatever it was between us is over for good,” I explained even, but I’m not entirely sure if I meant it.
She licked her lips and held my shirt tightly, staring at me intensely with confusion and pain in her eyes. It seemed like she is wondering whether or not to push me away and all I wanted to do is just to hug her.
Why is she hesitating?
“I don’t want you to leave, but you should leave for your own good.” She replied softly.
Is she serious?
My own good?
No fucking way!
“I don’t want to leave either,” I whispered and our faces were just a few inches apart. Our noses were almost touching and I was so close to kiss her.
Fuck, she smelled so good that I wanted to bury my face in her luscious hair and smell her more.
She pulled me closer by my collars, closing the gap between us and brushed her lips against mine softly. I wrapped my arms around her automatically, deepening the kiss and I could feel her melting against the body. I felt her erect nipples, brushing against my shirt, making me horny in an instant.
God! I missed this so much.
She feels so damn good in my arms and I don’t mind kissing her like this, forever. It is so different from our other kisses. It is gentle and soft, full of emotions.
“Wow,” I breathed heavily, trying to catch my breath when we pulled back and she smiled, lifting her gaze to mine, slowly.
“You’re a good kisser.” She smirked, playing with the buttons of my shirt.
Am I dreaming?
She’s behaving like a normal girl.
And I’m so relieved after seeing her like this. I smiled wholeheartedly.
“And you’re the most frustrating and confusing woman I had ever met,” I chuckled, pushing her hair away from her face. She pouted slightly and I couldn’t help but steal a quick kiss.
“Are you sure, you aren’t bipolar or something?” I teased, earning a hard punch from her on my arm.
“Shut up.” She mumbled, letting out a huge sigh.
“Why did you tell me to leave for my own good?” I asked directly instead of playing around the bush. “Trust me, Shehnaaz. That night, whatever I said, whenever I did, I meant it all and yo–” She placed I finger on my lip, interrupting me.
“I know, Sidharth.” She whispered.
“Than? Why were you pushing me away?” I asked, confusion dripping down my face.
“I w-was scared, Sidharth.” She stammered a bit, not meeting my gaze.
“Scared of me?” I instantly asked.
“Scared to be left alone.” She whispered, gazing deep in my eyes making me numb on my place.
“You can’t be with me forever, right? Nothing is forever. In the end, everyone has to leave. With time, you will be bored with me. I know, and therefore I was stopping you from coming close to me. I know whatever is between us is more than physical attraction but still, whenever we came close our desires overpowered us. And these desires and all will end with time. After that what Sidharth? I’ll be left alone. That’s why I was stopping myself, but I couldn’t. My feelings for you are so strong that I can’t stop myself–” I placed my finger on her lip, interrupting her.
“Shhh, you think too much, Shehnaaz. Don’t do this. Just feel it. Just go with the flow, Shehnaaz. Don’t ruin your present, thinking about the future and trust me, whatever is between us, is beyond anything.”
“But,” she tried to speak again, but I again shushed her.
“Shhh… Save something for our date. Trust me, I gonna end your all insecurities. This is just not a physical attraction, Shehnaaz. It’s beyond beautiful.” I replied, pulling her closer to myself by holding her waist and she raised her eyebrows.
“But we — wait for what? Date?” She asked, and widened her eyes.
Damn, she looked so cute.
“Yes, get ready, I need to go for a meeting, I’ll directly come to pick you up at seven,” I replied and kissed her deeply one last time before going out of her Cabin, not giving her any chance to speak.
I promise, Shehnaaz. I’ll wash your all the insecurities.