(Part: 42 Heartbreak {Most Awaited}) Love Or Sin {Sidnaaz}

Shivansh and Sidharth brought Shehnaaz to the hospital because she got unconscious. They were sitting tensely outside of wardroom. The doctor was checking her inside. Sidharth was staring straight blankly and his legs were trembling. Shivansh was sitting holding his head. Shehnaaz’s condition was making him scared. He understood that she was hiding something very terrible thing from him. He was terrified to even think that what she was hiding. His heart was thumping with fright.

“I don’t know what happened to her suddenly and what is she hiding,” Shivansh uttered looking at Sidharth dejectedly. Sidharth looked at him, having guilt in his eyes. He had answers of his all question but he wasn’t understanding that from where he should start.

“But I know.” As he mumbled, Shivansh’s eyes grew bigger in shock because he wasn’t expecting that Sidharth would be knowing about Shehnaaz’s problem.

“You know? Then tell me.” He asked, coming close to him. He became desperate to know, he couldn’t take the more suspense.

Inside the room, Shehnaaz gained her conscious back. She looked at the surroundings and got scared to wake up in the unfamiliar room. She gasped seeing the doctor who was standing beside her bed. He was a stranger to her. She trembled with the fear as that dreadful incident revolved in her mind. She was thinking that the doctor would harm her.

“Don’t, don’t touch me.” She sat up on the bed and shouted pushing the doctor away. He was shocked by Shehnaaz’s reaction.

“Don’t come close to me.” She shrieked, shrinking back by holding her knees close to her heart as Doctor tried to walk closer to her.

“Relax, I am not going to harm you.” He tried to assure her, but she was shaking with the fear. Her lips were trembling and her eyes were filled with fear. She was sweating and breathing heavily.

She hurriedly jumped out of the bed. In this, her hand touched the vase which was kept on the side table and it fell on the floor. She shrieked with fear, covered her ears with her palm and shut her tightly after listening to the sound of breaking of the vase.

Sidharth was about to tell Shivansh about Shehnaaz’s condition, but they were startled as they heard the screams of Shehnaaz from inside. They stared at each other in shock and then immediately rushed into the room.

As they stepped inside, Shehnaaz’s eyes fell over Sidharth. She rushed to him, passing by Shivansh making him shocked. She just hugged Sidharth tightly wrapping her arms around him and burying her face in his chest. Her hands clutched his jacket from behind. She was still shaking with the fear in his arms. She wasn’t in a state to think about Shivansh because of the fear. At that moment, her mind was only thinking about that dreadful incident which had made her so weak.

Sidharth hugged her back tighter and looked at Shivansh who was staring at her in utter shock, his eyes wide-open. He was in a complete state of shock after seeing Shehnaaz’s condition and the way she had hugged Sidharth. He couldn’t believe his eyes.

“Sidharth, please save me. Please, I am scared.” She was stammering in fear while hugging him more and more tightly like she wanted him to store her in his arms forever. She was terrified.

“Relax, Shehnaaz. Nobody will harm you. I am with you.” He tried to console her by rubbing her back and whispering in her ear. She was feeling better in his arms and stopped trembling.

“Where were you? Why did you leave me alone, Sidharth? Please, take me home. I am scared.” She cried in his arms and seeing her condition, Sidharth’s heart broke down. He wanted to take out her this fear completely. He couldn’t see her like this. He also cried hugging her tightly, forgetting about Shivansh.

Shivansh was completely numb after seeing all this. He was looking at them incredulously. His mind stopped responding and his heart stopped beating. He was completely blank at that moment because of the shock.

Shehnaaz left Sidharth’s jacket from behind and fainted.

“Shehnaaz.” He called her anxiously, caressing her back, but she didn’t respond. He immediately understood that she became unconscious again. He picked her fragile body into his arms and took her toward the bed. He placed her on the bed and caressed her hair, gazing at her pale face with tearful eyes. He kissed her forehead, promising her that he would heal her completely and fill her life with happiness.

“Did something happen to her recently?” Doctor asked suspiciously from Sidharth. Sidharth stood straight. He looked at the doctor and nodded his head positively, wiping his tears.

“What?” Doctor strolled toward Sidharth.

Before answering to doctor’s question, Sidharth looked at Shivansh who was staring straight in shock.

Sidharth rubbed his forehead and took a deep breath. “Some… somebody tried to rape her a few days back.” As Sidharth told this, Shivansh’s eyes shot up in a shock. He was looking at Sidharth with wide eyes. He wasn’t expecting this. Somebody tried to rape his wife and he didn’t even know.

“I was expecting something like this only. Don’t worry, she will be fine with time. This type of incident can’t be forgotten easily. Just take care of her.” The doctor assured Sidharth by putting his hand on his shoulder and walked out, leaving Sidharth and Shivansh alone.

Sidharth lumbered toward Shivansh after composing himself and gathering the courage to face him and tell him the whole truth because this was the high time.

But Shivansh walked away passing by Sidharth toward Shehnaaz. He stood beside her bed and stared at her with sorrowful eyes. He sobbed, caressing her cheek with his thumb. He loved her so much and listening that somebody had tried to hurt her, it broke his heart. His heart became heavy and he couldn’t stop himself from crying. He always wished for her happiness. Sidharth was also crying looking at him.

Sidharth walked toward him and stood behind her. “Shivansh, I’m sorry.” He apologised, putting his hand over his shoulder. Shivansh stopped crying, listening to Sidharth’s words.

He wiped his tears and composed himself before turning toward him. “Is Shehnaaz the girl whom you love ?” He asked sternly, looking straight into his eyes. He became doubtful seeing the way Shehnaaz had hugged him and after that how Sidharth had consoled her but still in his mind, he was hoping to be proved wrong.

Sidharth’s eyes instantly moved down in guilt, the guilt of falling in love with his wife. He nodded his head positively and still his eyes were looking down. He couldn’t meet his eyes with him after doing this sin.

An ache started deep in his stomach, he closed his eyes dejectedly. He felt extreme pain in his heart like somebody stabbed the knife into his heart deeply. He felt nothing except pain at that moment. He was badly hurt from inside.

Sidharth raised his face to look at him for a second only, after that he again moved his eyes down on the floor and waited for his reaction. He was ready to bear his anger because he deserved it.

“I knew it, one or the other day, this would happen, she would leave me. But I was a fool, who was loving her and in return expecting her to love me one day when her behaviour was clearly showing me that she would never love me.” Shivansh uttered dishearteningly, staring at Shehnaaz. He had tears in his eyes. His heart was aching badly.

Sidharth’s eyes moved toward Shivansh and he pursed his lips, controlling himself to not cry.

“I’m sorry. It, it happened, because, because of me. I never wanted to, wanted to come in, between in you both.” He was stammering because he was embarrassed.

“Sorry? Why sorry?” As Shivansh asked, Sidharth’s eyes again moved down on the floor.

“I’m hurt, Sidharth. I’m badly hurt.” Shivansh lips were trembling. Sidharth shut his eyes and fresh tears rolled down his cheeks. He never wanted to become the reason for his pain. He never wanted to hurt him.

“But not because of you. It’s not your mistake. My statement is still the same, falling in love is not a mistake. All this was written in our destiny.” Sidharth looked at him instantly. He stared at him in disbelief, without blinking his eyes. He was expecting that he would understand him one day but he didn’t expect this so soon. Shivansh was hurt badly but still, he didn’t blame him, not even for once.

Shivansh composed himself and held his shoulder. “Shehnaaz wasn’t written in my destiny. She is yours, take care of her.” He said those words, putting a stone on his heart. Then he left from there, last time glancing at Shehnaaz with sorrowful eyes. He loved her so much and today he lost all hope of getting love from her.

Giving your wife to somebody else, whom you love so much, you need a big heart for doing this.

After coming out of the hospital, Shivansh screamed. He slumped down on the floor and cried loudly in extreme pain, covering his face with his hands. He wanted to take out his all pain by doing this but the pain was not lessening even a bit, rather it was increasing.

He couldn’t even cry in front of Sidharth because he didn’t want to make him feel guilty. He wanted him to handle Shehnaaz because she needed him. He knew, if he showed his pain to Sidharth, then he would never accept Shehnaaz wholeheartedly. He didn’t want to increase his guilt more by showing his pain to him and telling him that he could never stop himself for loving Shehnaaz. After losing all hope, his heart was still loving her and wanted her happiness which was with Sidharth, not with him. After being hurt, he was still thinking about Sidnaaz’s happiness, which showed how truly he loved them. He had a big heart.


So finally the most awaited update is here, Shivansh’s reaction after knowing the truth. I hope it is up to the mark.

Did you guys expect his this reaction?

Love Mehak

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