(Part: 5B Burning All the Feelings) Love Or Sin {Sidnaaz}

Next morning

Last night was difficult for Shehnaaz and Sidharth both. Shehnaaz wasn’t able to sleep properly the whole night. She was waking up after every few minutes while breathing heavily. One side she was confused about what was happening to her that why she was thinking about Sidharth and another side her heart was getting restless because it was craving to come in his arms which were like home to her where she felt secure and comfortable. She felt like his arms always belonged to her. Her heart wanted to be in his arms again, but her mind was making her think why she was thinking about another person instead of her husband.

Sidharth cried the whole night, lying on the floor, cuddling himself into the small ball but the pain of guilt and the pain of burning of his own feelings was not going away. He wanted someone to hold him tightly and say that everything will be fine, Sidharth and there is nothing wrong to fall in love. He wanted to make everything fine. He wanted to be the old Sidharth again who was stressed free, who was happy in his life without any tension.

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“Good morning Shivansh.” Sidharth walked to the dining table where Shehnaaz and Shivansh were already having their breakfast. Shivansh was happy to see him after so many days in the morning. He wished him back cheerily.

“Good morning, Shehnaaz.” Sidharth wished Shehnaaz too, sitting on the chair beside Shivansh. Shehnaaz who was lost in her thought instantly looked up at Sidharth when he wished her good morning. Her heart stopped beating as her eyes saw him.

She calmed down herself, taking a deep breath then spoke. “So good to see you at the breakfast table after such a long time.” Sidharth gave her a smile. Her mind and heart both stopped working, seeing his smile. For the first time, she noticed his smile and it made her heart go crazy. She found his smile captivating and beautiful.

Sidharth and Shivansh were busy talking to each other and she was busy admiring his perfect face for the first time. She saw his black eyes which were filled with lots of emotions, she admired his perfectly shaped nose and his lips and his perfect jawline. His face was perfect from everywhere.

Shehnaaz came on the earth back as Shivansh and Sidharth laughed together loudly on something which she didn’t even know because that time she was completely busy in admiring Sidharth’s perfect face. She looked down immediately and scolded herself after realising that what she was doing openly a few seconds ago. She was admiring her husband’s best friend face shamelessly when her husband was also sitting beside her.

“Shivansh, I’m bringing more sandwiches from the kitchen.” Suddenly Shehnaaz excused herself, getting up from the chair. Shivansh nodded his head, looking at her and Sidharth was busy eating the buttered toast. She immediately left from there without looking at Sidharth because his presence was affecting her. She was feeling like she was losing control over her own mind and heart when he was sitting near to her. That’s why she came to the kitchen, giving an excuse.

“What is happening to me? Why he is affecting me like this? What is happening to me? Oh god, this is so wrong.” She walked into the kitchen, muttering. Luckily there was no maid in the kitchen. She was breathing heavily. Her mind was blasting, thinking what was happening to her and why. She only knew one thing that what was happening to her, it was completely wrong. The feeling of guilt started building in her. She was waiting to fall in love with his husband one day but she never thought that one day her heart would start liking someone else. She wanted to fall in love but she wanted to feel all this for her husband, not for his best friend. Deep inside she knew that she had started falling in love with him but she was scared to accept it.

After composing herself, Shehnaaz came back to the dining table, holding the plate of sandwiches in her hand. Sidharth’s eyes fell over her. He looked at her from her toes to her head. She was looking stunning to him in a simple black top with rugged jeans also. Their eyes looked at each other for a few seconds when she was serving him a sandwich, standing beside him. He passed her smile and on which she smiled back. Then she again settled down beside Shivansh and served him too. They both also passed a smile to each other. Shivansh raised his eyebrows because she was looking lost to him. She shook her head in response, giving him small smile.

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Shivansh and Sidharth waiting for Shehnaaz to come because Shehnaaz had gone to bring blazer of Shivansh from their room. She came back with his blazer, putting it on her arm. She got successful in controlling her mind from not looking at Sidharth this time. She helped Shivansh in wearing the blazer. Sidharth was looking at them and this time he was normal.

“See you soon, Mrs Oberoi.” He kissed Shehnaaz’s forehead, holding her face. Sidharth’s heart ached, seeing this but he was seeing them as nothing happened. Shehnaaz heart also cried because after having so caring and loving husband, her mind was thinking about the person whom she met a few weeks back. Then Shivansh and Sidharth left the house together and Shehnaaz went to her room.

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“Shivansh, I am really sorry. From few days I had been so busy that I didn’t even get time to talk with you. But I promise you, this won’t happen again.” Sidharth apologised when Shivansh was about to sit inside his car. Shivansh gave him smile, turning toward him. Sidharth was looking at him, having guilt in his eyes.

“Sidharth, I was really worried for you because you had never ignored me like this before. Sidharth I just wanna say that.. that for me your happiness matters a lot and you know that. You will always remain my first priority. You are not my best friend, you are my brother. If something is bothering you, you can share it with me. I will never judge you. We will find a solution like always. But please never ignore me like this again. You can make the whole world fool but not me. You are pretending that you are happy but your face is telling to me clearly that something is there which is bothering you. Whatever it is, I don’t care. I just only care about your happiness. Always be happy, Sidharth.” Shivansh sat down in the car, saying this. Sidharth just passed him small smile because he had nothing to say at that moment. His words made him stronger to fight with his feelings for his best friend.

Shivansh left and then Sidharth reached toward his car and after checking his all pockets, he realised that he forgot his car’s key in his room only. He went into the mansion after shaking his head. He reached his room, passing by Shehnaaz’s room. It was difficult but he got successful. He picked the key from the table and walked out. He walked a few steps and this time he couldn’t stop his mind from peeking inside her room.

She was standing on the stool, trying to hang the painting on the wall, but her hands were not reaching. As she stood on her toes and stretched her arms up in the air, she lost her balance. The painting fell down from her hands and before she could fall down, two protective arms saved her from falling down. She fell in the arms of Sidharth.

Finally Shehnaaz P.O.V. Still you all will be having lots of Questions related to her marriage. You will get answers to all these questions in upcoming updates.

Love Mehak

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