We made instant veg atta noddles for his dinner, we skipped the plan of making fried rice because he made me tired, but I love getting tired by him again and again. Now we’re sitting at the dining table. I’m sitting on his lap, only in his shirt, and he’s in shorts. I’m feeding him noddles with love and lots of kisses all over his face. I want to give my all love to him. I want to pamper him like he’s my baby and sometime I want him to pamper me like I’m his baby, really I want to experience all the flavor of love with him in this one life.
I fed him the last spoon of noddles and kissed his cheek. He’s just gazing at me with immense love. I really really love the way he gaze at me.
“Nobody cooked and fed me like this before, with so much love.” He suddenly uttered, his eyes filled with so many emotions, he’s caressing my cheek with his thumb. “You’re very precious to me, Princess. You are giving me that love, for which I had been yearning since childhood.” He added. My heart ached after knowing that no one loved him before. Now I really want to fill his life with love.
“When did you fall in love so deeply with me? I’m mean, so much trust, so much love, how?” He asked, staring at me in utter disbelief.
I really don’t have any answer of his this question and don’t know why and how I fall in love with him so much? I feel so connected to him from starting and really feel like our souls and hearts are connected to each other, and he’s my soulmate.
“I don’t know, I just only know one thing that I’ll always love you till my last breath. What I feel for you, it’s beyond words and it is so pure and true?” I clasped his face and confessed. “I really love you, Sidharth.”
After that he just hid his face in my chest and hugged me like babies hug their mother, pulling me closer to himself. I cradled him and kissed his hair. I promised him with this kiss that I’ll fill his life with immense love which he deserves and craved all his life.
“It’s time to sleep, my Princess.” He stood up, lifted me in his arms and took me to the room.
We’re now lying, cuddling each other in the comforter. I don’t know why I’m not feeling sleepy. I’m just thinking about tomorrow’s appointment with the doctor for mom.
I raised my head to look at him, his eyes are closed. “Sidharth, tomorrow I’ve appointment with doctor. I really can’t see mom like this.” As I uttered, he opened his eyes.
“Princess, she’s the best doctor. Trust me, your mom will be fine soon.” He assured me, placing his hand on my face.
“Sidharth, we’ve visited to so many doctors, but mom didn’t respond to any of their treatment. Now doctor Shelly is my only hope.”
“I’m with you, she’ll be fine.” He placed a tender kiss on my forehead, stroking my cheek with his thumb.
“Will you visit with me to the doctor tomorrow?” I asked, having hope in my eyes.
He nodded his head. “Off course, Princess. Anything for you.” He again kissed my forehead, I smiled broadly and hugged him happily. I was a bit stressed earlier, now he’s going with me, I’ve no stress because he’s my strength.
“Sidharth, can I ask you something?” I asked, looking at him. As he nodded his head in approval, I asked. “Tell me something about your family? Your mom..”
As I asked about his mother, his grip around my body became tighter.
He closed his eyes dejectedly. “I lost her in my childhood. I only have dad in my family.” He told me, looking at me with his sorrowful eyes.
“I’m sorry.” I’m really feeling so bad for him. My baby has grown up without love. Maybe that’s why he’s so insecure for me.
“It’s okay. Now you should sleep, Princess. We’ll talk tomorrow.”
I know, he’s not fine, but why he’s not ready to open with me, what is the thing which is stopping him. I’m waiting for the day when he’ll share everything with me without any fear. I rested my head on his chest and fell asleep, thinking about him.
I woke up in the middle of night from my deep slumber. I heard his whispers. I widened my eyes in shock as I found him, sweating badly. Maybe he’s seeing a nightmare. I moved my ear closer to his mouth to hear his whispers.
“Don’t-don’t go, please, don’t go, Pri-Princess.” I became numb and stared at him blankly. He’s really so afraid to lose to me, but why? A lone mechanically trickled down my cheek.
I composed myself and wiped my tear. “I’m not going anywhere, Sidharth. I’m with you and I’ll always be with you always.” I whispered and caressed his forehead, gazing at him with pain filled eyes. I can’t see him like this. I’ve to take this fear out of him, but first I want to know the reason of his this fear. As he calmed down, I sighed and kissed his forehead, promising him that I’ll never leave him and fill his life with the immense love.
“Princess.” He suddenly screamed and woke up from his sleep. He’s looking at me in utter disbelief and like a vulnerable child.
He’s so broken.
Next moment, his lips quivered, and he started whimpering fretfully. I just froze in shock, seeing his condition. My heart is aching listening to his whimpers and painful screams. He’s crying miserably, shutting his eyes. Tears are automatically trickling down my eyes and my chest is becoming heavier. I can’t see him in pain. I can’t see him in this condition.
I clasped his face and asked. “Sid-Sidharth what happened? Tell me.”
“You’ll also leave me like mom.” He shrieked in terror and pain. I sobbed, shaking my head. “I-I am very bad, Princess, nobody wants to stay with me. I’m very bad.” He cried more badly, I cried too. My heart is crying with him. I never felt so much pain ever before. It is really unbearable to see the person whom you love so much in pain. You felt like someone is constantly stabbing knife in your heart. It is really painful. Today, I came to know that he’s still so broken and shattered.
I straddled him, I held his face firmly and touched with my face. “No matter what, I’ll never leave you. Your Princess will never leave you. You’re a great person, I want to stay with you forever. You are not bad person at all.” I tried to console him with my soothing words. I’m trying my best to calm him down.
He placed his hands over my hands. “You don’t know anything. When you also come to know, you’ll also hate me and leave me like everybody.” He cried, clutching my hands.
“Never ever, my heart can stop beating, but my heart can never stop loving you. I can never hate you, Sidharth. I love you and I’ll always love you. If one day you yourself ask me to leave you, I’ll still not leave you because I love you a lot.” I started kissing every inch of his face. I’m sucking his all tears and like this I want suck all his pain. I don’t know what is the thing he’s talking about, I just only know that I love him, and he loves me and except this, nothing matters to me. There is no power stronger than in this world from the power of true love. Nothing can separate him from me. I really love him.
“No matter what, I’ll not leave you.” I stated, looking deep in his eyes which were asking me to help him. His soul is asking me to give him relief through his eyes.
“I need you, I need your love. I badly need you, Princess. I’m drowning, please help me.” He begged, crying like helpless child. I pursed my lips dejectedly. I’m feeling immense pain in my heart after seeing him like this.
“I’ll not let you drown. I’ll take away all your fear with my love.” I again started kissing every inch of his face with so much love. I trailed soft kisses down his neck and chest. I raised my brows in shock as I noticed light scars all over his stomach and chests. I’m afraid to even think about what types of marks are these. I thought to ask about this from him tomorrow, I don’t want to assume anything for now.
I sighed and kissed every inch of his body. I came back to his face. “I love you so much, Sidharth.” I confessed before capturing his lips. I kissed him deeply and intensely, pouring my all love. He kissed me back, clasping my face. He’s still shedding tears of sorrow and it is hurting me a lot. I slid his shorts down his legs from inside the comforter and pulled up my shirt. I started taking him into me, shutting my eyes and kissing him deeply.
I took him deep into me and embraced him tightly. “Just feel me, baby. We’re one, nobody can separate us.” I breathed in his ear.
“Our soul is one, Can you feel it?” I asked, hugging him tighter and taking him deeper into me. It is hurting a bit, but I can do anything for him and this pain is nothing. I really love him a lot. I can’t see him pain.
I’ll do anything to take his this fear out of him with my love.
“I love you, Princess.” He pulled me closer to himself, hugging me tighter. I smiled blissfully after finally listening ‘I love you’. Finally, I got him back.
Don’t forget to leave your comments. They really mean a lot to me.
Do you like the way Sana has consoled Sidharth?
What do you think, why he’s so insecure?