Sid stopped the car in front of Sana’s house. He came to drop her at home in the evening after helping her in choosing of her engagement dress. He looked at her and found her already staring at him.
Sid opened his mouth to say something but before he could speak, she uttered.
“In two days, we are going to be engaged and with in a month, we will be got tied in the bond of marriage.” She said, still staring at him. Sid was listening to her, looking at her. When she talked about marriage, a bright smile spread across his face, thinking about their future when she would live with him. The wait was making him excited.
“My next words gonna hurt you. But I really need to tell you this.” She said, making him confused. Listening to her words, his smile faded away.
“Trust is everything in marriage. Without trust, a relationship wouldn’t survive. Trust is like the glue which holds the things together. I just need to say that..”Sana paused for a moment. Sid’s heart was beating fast.
“I don’t trust you. I mean, I can’t trust you.” She stated after taking a deep breath. He felt hurt when she said those words and she noticed this.
“You will be thinking that what wrong you did. You haven’t done anything wrong. You’ve always understood me since the day we met, but still, I am doubting you. The reason is that I don’t trust you.” She was saying everything clearly because she didn’t want that he should get hurt after marriage. She wanted to clear everything before marriage. Every time when she was saying that she doesn’t trust him, his heart was breaking a bit more. He wanted to know the reason.
“Why ?” He asked in serious tone , looking at her. She looked down, playing with her fingers.
“Look at me, Shehnaaz.” He said in dominating tone, holding her arms and pulling her toward himself. As his cold hands touched her skin, she felt a shiver ran down her spine. Instantly her eye lashes moved upward and she looked into his eyes which were filled with questions.
“Because I can’t do the same mistake again of trusting someone. Because It’s hurt a lot. When once the trust breaks, It breaks the complete person with his heart and soul. My broken heart will never able to love you and trust you.” She uttered sadly, few tears trickled down her cheeks. She instantly wiped them with her hand. Sid was silent, his heart was breaking, seeing his angel in pain. He felt like to kill that person who made her this condition.
“I just want to tell you that you would suffer all your life if you marry me. This marriage will not give you anything except pain.” She stated in serious tone, looking at him. Her voice and her eyes, both were filled with pain. He wanted to take away her all pain and wanted to give all the happiness of life to her.
“Shehnaaz, you don’t need to be worried for me. I know what I am doing, I am doing right. You never said but your eyes already told me that you are in pain. You hide your pain behind your smile. Have I ever asked you to love me or trust me ? No, I have never asked because I know for now you can’t trust me. But one day, you will. You don’t trust your heart but I have full trust on my heart. Our love story has already begun and It is going to be the most beautiful one.” He reassured her confidently and wanted to said a lot. She was staring at him in utter disbelief.
He knew that at this time, his words would not do anything. She needed time. He was sure that gradually she would start trusting him because he had a hope. He knew that his touch was making her weak, his presence affected her. He knew that her heart was developing feeling for him, but she would not accept because she was afraid to trust her heart again. His this hope would only break the wall which she had formed around her. His this hope only would teach her how to love and trust again.
Completing his words, he kissed her cheeks after coming close to her face. Her heart skipped beating for a second as his lips touched her skin and she widened her eyes in surprise with his sudden kiss. She was not expecting this from him at this moment. He moved away and looked at her, having smile on his face.
“Did you feel anything when I kissed you ?” He asked, taking the first step to make her realise her feeling first. Before doing anything, he wanted to make her realise first that she also have feeling for him.
“No..” She shrieked, nodding her head negatively like she was not giving the answer to him, she was giving the answer to her heart and mind. He knew that her answer would be no only and he also knew that she would not easily accept that what her heart felt for him. Her fear of again getting hurt would always stop her from realising her true feeling, but Sidharth Shukla had his own way.
“I think, I shall go now.” She said and hastily climbed out of the car. He could clearly see that how she was running from her feelings, but he was a bit happy also because at least he knew that she also had feeling for him inside her heart.
“At least today, she herself accepted in front of me that she is in pain and the reason of her pain is a person who broke her trust. I really feeling like to kill that person for breaking my angel to this extend that she even afraid to trust her own heart. This is going to be difficult, but I will make her accept that what her heart feels for me. One day she will accept her feelings then it will get easy for me to make her trust me.” He said to himself confidently and held the steering tightly. He had full confident on the feelings which he had for her.
Shehnaaz sat on the bed, having fear in her eyes.
“What is happening to me ? Why always my heartbeat accelerates when he touches me and his lips touch my skin ?” She asked this question from herself, putting hand on her heart. Her eyes were filled with fear.
“Sana, you need to stop your heart from again becoming fool. Your heart is again going into wrong direction. You can’t fall for anybody again. Before it gets late, you need to control your heart.” Her mind warned her.
“Sana, you need to move on. Can’t you see , Sidharth is nice man ? God has sent Sidharth to heal you. Can’t you see the truth in his eyes ? Can’t you see that he cared for you ? You should accept him and try to trust him. You don’t need to run away from your feelings.” Now her heart asked her to trust him.
“No, you should control your feelings.” Her mind said again.
“No, you should trust him.” Her mind and her heart started fighting.
“Shut up. I know that what is right for me.” She shouted loudly, getting up and covered her ears with her both hands.
“I will not become again fool by trusting someone. Maybe Sidharth just need me in his life that’s why he is so nice to me. When he gets what he needs from me, he would start showing his true colours or may be he would throw me out of his life. It will be better for me that I should control myself here only.” She said to herself loudly and went to take shower. Her words were clearly showing that it was really difficult for her to trust someone.