Love Or Sin (Part : 41 Broken Dreams)

Shivansh was completely broken. He was standing on the cliff and screaming loudly but the pain was not lessening. Today, he lost all his dream also with Nandini. He had seen many dreams with her , having babies , she is confessing love to him , they both are playing with their kids and the dream of growing old with her. When he was seeing those dreams , he didn’t know that one day his all dreams would be broken like this. If he knew , he would have never seen those dreams.

He was feeling like to jump off the cliff and end his all pain with his life. He was feeling like the whole world is collapsing down in front of his eyes. He had never thought that she would fall in love with Manik. He couldn’t even fight to get her because she was in love with his best friend. There was no hope left with him of getting her love. He was feeling so empty like nothing had left with him. The one year was so beautiful with her. She was the happiness of his life. He was trying to keep her happy and he had always thought about her happiness before his own happinesses. He was so in love with her that he couldn’t able to see that she wasn’t in love with him.

But now he was realising that he was such a fool. He was realising that whenever he tried to get close to her, she would go away or give some excuse. He was blindly in love with her and he was happy. Her behaviour was clearly telling him that she didn’t love him but still he ignored everything and keep loving her unconditionally. But he got this in return.

He went to bar and got drunk. One drink after another drink but the pain wasn’t lessening. All the moments which he had spent with her , they were beautiful and precious which he wanted to forget but it isn’t easy to forget the best time of our life. Memories can never be forgotten whether they are good or bad.

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Nandini woke up after few hours and found Manik , sitting beside her bed , on stool , holding her hand. Manik gave her small smile, caressing her hair with his free hand.

“How are you feeling?” He asked concernedly, putting hands on her face. Now his thumbs were caressing her cheeks.

“I’m fine.” She replied him blinking her eyes.

“Where is Shivansh?” His face expression got changed when Nandini asked about Shivansh.

“Now , he knows everything.” Manik sighed.

“He was badly hurt but still he neither blamed me nor you. He just asked me to take care of you. He loves you a lot , Nandini. I don’t know how he will move on…” Manik was staring straight. Nandini closed her eyes dejectedly.

“I was wishing him to hate me.” Nandini uttered suddenly gazing straight. Then turned her face to look at Manik. She found him staring at her confusingly.

“If he had started hating me then it would have become little easy to move on for him.”She again looked straight blankly.

“Don’t you think ?” she asked looking at him.

“The person who loves you , that person can never hate you. He can only pretend but his heart can never hate you. You know , one sided love , it gives a extreme pain to you but still you can’t stop loving that person who loves another person. Seeing that person whom you love , with somebody else, it burns your heart. I have gone through this pain because I didn’t know that you love me , not Shivansh. I was thinking that my love is one sided and even I had accepted this truth putting stone on my heart that you can never be mine. But still I could never stop my heart from loving you , for not even a single second. You know , I had never wished you to love me back because I didn’t want this to happen. I didn’t want that Shivansh go through the same pain , which I have gone through. But all these things were written in our destiny. I’m relieved that now he knows the truth. The day , Shivansh will move on his life happily, that day , I will be happy from my heart.” Manik was telling her everything which was going in his mind. Nandini was listening him silently.

“Manik , I want to meet him. I want to apologise from him. Please, take me to him.” She requested Manik holding his hand. He nodded his head positively.

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One maid told Manan that She left Shivansh in his room and she also told them that he was completely drunk and he also broke the things in his room. Manan looked at each dejectedly knowing about his condition. They were dying in the pool of guilt every second.

“Nandini , you go. I will not able to see him in this condition.”Manik asked Nandini to go alone. She went upstairs last time looking at him. Manik was having no courage to see him in the pain , the pain which was given by him only. He wanted to console his friend but he knew , his presence would only increase his pain. He was glad that he didn’t hate him but he was hating himself for destroying his friend’s life. He would never able to forgive himself for hurting his best friend.

Nandini was standing outside of Shivansh’s room holding the knob of door. Before stepping inside , she was composing herself by taking a deep breath. She opened the door after wiping her tears with her knuckles. As she was about to take first step, her eyes fell on the broken photo frame which was lying on floor near to door. In the photo, Shivansh was smiling having so much love in his eyes while looking at the laughing Nandini. Fresh tears rolled down from her eyes. She bent down and picked up the frame. She looked at the surroundings and found that the whole room was messed up. Nothing was kept on it’s place.

She saw the door of balcony was opened. She understood that Shivansh was in the balcony. She kept the frame on table and walked toward the balcony. She saw Shivansh , sitting on the railing , facing his back to her. She was walking toward him slowly. Her heart was beating fast and her breath was becoming heavy with the every step which she was taking toward him.

“Shi.. Shivansh” she gathered courage and called him clutching her fist.

Shivansh was sitting holding the glass of scotch. Listening her voice, he clutched the glass and squeezed his eyes.

“I’m sorry.” She apologised fighting back with the tears.

“Nandini, just go away from here. I don’t want to talk.” He asked her to go after composing himself because he was not in his senses. He knew , his words could hurt her which he didn’t want. He always wanted her happiness. In drunk state also , he was thinking about her.

“Shivansh, I know you are badly hurt because of me. I never wanted to hurt you. I always love you , but just as a good friend only. I care for you. I know , you love me a lot and I’m really sorry that I couldn’t able to love you back and keep asking for time , instead of telling you that I don’t love you , I..” She was feeling extremely guilty for not loving her husband back. She was crying badly looking down.

It hurt Shivansh a lot when she said that she doesn’t love him. He was waiting to hear ‘I love you’ from more than 1 year and listening this , it broke his heart into million of pieces.

He jumped down the railing after turning toward her and reached toward her with in second. “Is something wrong in me that you don’t love me , Nandini ?” He cut her words and asked pulling her toward himself after grabbing her arms. He was having tears in his eyes at that moment and his voice was filled with pain.

“No , Shivansh, you are perfect. You have a golden heart. Nothing is wrong in you. I really don’t know why my heart can’t love you. It’s my fault , not yours.” She shouted cutting his words because she never wanted him to think that something was wrong in him.

“I loved you a lot and it is hurting a lot. You know , what’s more hurting?” He asked while crying badly now. Nandini was also crying , looking at him silently.

“ that I can’t control my heart from loving you , Nandini , not even after knowing that you love somebody else and you can never be mine.” He dug his nails in her arms pulling her closer to himself.

Nandini was completely understanding his state. It is not easy to stop loving somebody. She tried to stop loving Manik so many times but she always failed.

“I really love you , Nandini.” He cupped her face and cried touching his face with her. She too cried. He could feel her hot breath on his lips. He was badly feeling like to kiss her lips and taste her juicy lips for the last time. He wanted to kiss her lips for his survival.

“Now just go away from here , Nandini , or else I will never let you go.” He suddenly moved away from her and asked her to go turning toward another side.

“I’m sorry , Shivansh.” She apologised for the last time and ran from there while crying badly.

“I love you , Nandini. I love you..” Shivansh screamed loudly holding the railing tightly , as Nandini left.


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17 thoughts on “Love Or Sin (Part : 41 Broken Dreams)

  1. You have a beautiful way of writing.. Don’t have words to describe 😭😭 Shivansh condition nd Manan pain.. It was an emotional rollercoaster ride.. Jo jaldi hi heal ho jayegi.. Hatts off to shivansh itne strong pain ko bear kar liya 😭😭

  2. This time atleast Manik has to take care of him . not matter what he can hate Manik but manik has to be face his hater too and beside him .

  3. Omg seriously I am loving it my god shivanash is cute I mean so emotional dudu I don’t know what to say yaar but hatts off miku 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

  4. Only that person ca feel who suffered. Feeling very bad for Shivansh. But no one has any option now… you can’t love forcefully… the update is so touchy… made me emotional

  5. It is a nice update dear😊😊… Feeling bad for shivaansh…. Hope he overcomes his pain…. Manan have to stay strong

  6. Sach hi toh hain k jise hum pyaar kartein hain usse hum kabhi nafrat nahin kar saktein lekin jitna bhi karlo koshish aur yeh jaan bhi lo k ab woh kabhi humarein nahin ho saktein phir bhi him unsein mohabbat karna Chod nahin saktein isse hum kehtein hain battar zindagi jeena isse toh marna kahin zyada asaan hain lekin kehtein hain us pal jo guilty aur painful lag rahan hain aisa lag rahan hain yeh pyaar curse hain aur kisiko lag rahan hain k pyaar k layek main hoon hi nahin lekin trust me everything is possible in this world just give some time.

    You again nailed it @mehaklovely my friend very painful but i am loving it tytytytttttgyyyyyyyyssssssssssmmmmmmm ❤❤❤❤❤❤waiting for the next part eagerly please post it asap Luv u ❤❤❤❤❤❤my ❤❤❤

  7. Awesome update diiiiii..

    Seriously feel bad for shivansh he doesnt deserve this …..letting her go was not easy hell its the worst thing ever ..but he know he cant force to love him …..he is a gem …..i love u shivansh 😍 ❤ 😘 😍….

    About manan they have bear this much more to come i hope they stay strong ……
    Lots of love .take care diiii

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