Love Or Sin (Part : 15 Trying to Move On)

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“Manik, Please, get up… I love you. You have to get up for me Manik… Manik…” Nandini was shaking Manik’s lifeless body which was kept in front of her on floor. She was screaming sitting on the floor beside his body but Manik was not waking up. Her condition was worsening seeing Manik who was lying in front of her like a lifeless body.

“Manik… Manik…” Nandini woke up with the jerk from the deep slumber, shrieking. She was breathing heavily and sweating badly. She sighed deeply after realising that it was just a nightmare. She picked up the phone to look the time. It was at two o’clock . She thought to call Shivansh to ask about Manik but didn’t call him because she didn’t want to disturb his sleep. She again lay down, closing her eyes after keeping her phone back on the side table. She instantly opened her eyes within a few seconds when the glimpse of that scary nightmare again came into her mind. She jumped out of the bed and started roaming across her room restlessly. She was horrified because of the nightmare.

On the other hand, Manik was telling Shivansh about the reason of his pain.

“The problem is that she is married.” Shivansh became silent after listening to Manik’s next words. He was looking at Manik in shock. Shivansh didn’t expect this.

“Does she love you ?” Shivansh asked after a few seconds of silence. Manik looked at him blankly after listening to his question and then again gazed straight. As Nandini’s confession echoed in his ear, tears welled up in his eyes.

“It doesn’t matter Shivansh that she loves me or not. The thing is that she is married. How can I love her? My love is a sin. It’s wrong.” Manik took a deep breath and then uttered looking at Shivansh with brooding eyes. Shivansh could see how much pain his friend was going through. It was hurting him a lot seeing him in anguish. He had no idea that the reason of his pain would be this.

“Manik, love can never be wrong. It’s our thinking. I just want to say that if that girl loves you then you both should come together. If she loves you and she is not coming to you then she is doing wrong with you and her husband both. She betraying her husband by doing this. It’s my opinion. Please don’t think that your love is wrong. The girl who marries you, she will be luckiest person, I am telling you.” Manik smiled slightly. His words made Manik happy. He felt so lucky to have a friend like Shivansh in his life.

“Shivansh, I want to forget that girl. I want to move on in my life. I just need your support. I just don’t want to think, what is wrong and what is right. I just want to forget her.” Manik stated in serious tone after making himself strong.

“I’m always there for you, Manik but forgetting the girl whom you love is not easy. Tell me that girl’s name, I will talk to her. I will make her understand.” Manik gazed down sadly.

“Manik, I can’t see you in pain yaar. I can’t… it hurts. I am feeling like I am losing you.” Shivansh uttered dishearteningly, putting his hand on his shoulder and few tears automatically streamed down his cheeks. Listening to Shivansh’s words, Manik shut his eyes and tears rolled down his cheeks.

“I want my happy and carefree Manik back and I can do anything for that.” He asserted in serious tune, wiping off his tears with the back of his palm.

“Then help me in moving on to get me back. If you don’t want to lose me forever, then stop making the things fine. The more you try to make the things better, the more I will go away from you. Shivansh, I am requesting you to please, just forget the things which I told you today and help me too in forgetting those things.” Manik pleaded him joining his hands in front of Shivansh making him shocked.

“Manik, of course I will help. If moving on is your decision then also I am with you. I am with you, Manik, always. I just want your happiness.” Shivansh hugged him.

“I am sorry, Shivansh, but I can’t hurt you for my happiness. The way my happiness is important to you, in the same way, your happiness is important to me. I can’t hurt you, Shivansh by telling you that I love your wife. It will destroy you and our friendship. You will give Nandini happily to me but inside it will kill you. And it will be the end of our friendship. I will always choose our friendship over my love because I don’t want to lose a friend like you.” Manik cried hugging him back. Shivansh also cried for his friend.

They wiped off their tears before breaking the hug. As they broke the hug, Shivansh’s phone rang up which was kept on the side table. He narrowed his brows, wondering who could call him at this time. He picked up the phone from the table and seeing the caller id, he immediately answered the call. It was Nandini’s call. Manik was looking at him worriedly.

“Shivansh, how is everybody there? How is Manik, you, Cabir and Mukti? Everything is alright there, right?” Nandini asked sounding worried. Shivansh immediately understood that she might have seen a bad dream.

“Nandini, Relax. Everything is fine here. Should I come there if you need me?” Shivansh asked concernedly. Manik looked on the other side when he came to know it was Nandini’s call.

“No.” Nandini instantly denied because She wanted Shivansh to be there with Manik. He needed Shivansh.

“You be there. Manik’s needs you more. I was just worried because of the bad dream. Now I am fine. Good night.” She completely her words.

“Good night. Take care.” Shivansh smiled slightly, and then he hung up the call.

“I think we should sleep now,” as Shivansh said, Manik nodded at him. They lay down on the bed and closed their eyes, but the sleep was far away from their eyes. On the other side, Nandini was lying on the bed and trying to sleep but couldn’t. She went to take shower to get fresh.

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Few more days passed in agony. Manik was recovering from the injuries. Shivansh was trying his best to keep his friend happy, but he could see that he was still in pain. Nandini was keeping herself busy in work of the NGO and trying her best to not think about Manik. They both slept for only two or three hours at night and that too very difficultly. The separation was making them more crazy instead of helping them out.

Manik was coming back from the hospital after the routine check-up. Manik gazed out of the window when the car stopped at the red light. He was sitting at the backseat with Cabir and the driver was sitting at the front seat. His eyes fell over the kids who were playing with the ball and Nandini was also playing with the kids happily. Seeing her happy, a bright smile touched his lips. He got lost in her. She was the peace of his eyes, heart, mind and soul.

“Manik, are you listening to me ?” Cabir shouted, putting his hand on his shoulder. Manik looked at him after coming on the earth back.

Manik was about to say something but he again glanced out of the window as the driver started the car. He was shocked to find the another girl who was playing with the kids in the same clothes which Nandini was wearing. Manik closed his eyes dejectedly realising that he was imagining her.

“Manik, Are you fine?” Cabir who was noticing Manik’s every expression, he asked worriedly seeing him upset. Manik blinked his eyes, looking at him saying him in a gesture that he is fine.

This was the day when Manik started imagining Nandini everywhere. His condition was worsening and nobody knew that because he was pretending in front of everyone that he was fine. Only Shivansh knew that he was not fine but he was helping him a lot at his bad time like always.

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“Nandini, I think we should go on a small trip. Since a few weeks, I am not able to give you time and I am really sorry about that.” Shivansh spoke at the dining table when they were having breakfast.

“Shivansh, I can understand. Don’t be sorry, please. You are taking care of your best friend and there is nothing wrong in that. We can go on vacation when Manik gets completely fine.” Nandini answered him and inside her mind, she scolded herself for saying no because she wanted to spend some time with him to proceed with their marriage.

“Thank you for always understanding me, Nandini. I really love you a lot.” Shivansh confessed his love and held her hand. He brought her hand near to his lips and kissed them gently. Nandini gave him small smile in response.

After One Month

Manik and Nandini didn’t meet each other for the whole month. Manik was physically fine now. A week back he shifted to his own house and started going to his office also. He was trying to forget Nandini. He again started drinking and smoking to take out Nandini from his head. He wanted to see her beautiful face, he wanted to hold her in his arms and store her in them forever. The thing which was stopping him from going back to Nandini was Shivansh. He didn’t want to lose him. He didn’t want to make his life happy by snatching his friend happiness. Manik and Nandini, they both had been yearning to see each other from one month which was like more than one year for them. Their heart was beating for each other and asking them to go and meet each other every second, but they were listening to their mind and staying away from each other.

Nandini was getting ready for a business party of Shivansh, standing in front of the mirror in beautiful black saree. Her hair was tied up in a bun. The blouse of her saree was backless. She was wearing the earring. She was looking beautiful, but the smile was missing from her face. The dori of her blouse was still open. She looked in the mirror and found Manik strolling over her.

“You are looking so beautiful that if the moon sees you today, it will also get jealous of seeing you,” Manik spoke huskily in her ear and held both the dori of her blouse. He nuzzled her neck, tying the dori with his hands. Nandini was enjoying his touch with her eyes closed. She was loving his touch. Her body was burning with the desire when his warm breath was caressing his cold skin. After tying the dori, he pulled her toward himself from behind by grasping her bare waist. She gazed at him in shook through the mirror.

“I love you.” Then he whispered those three magical words in her ear and bit her earlobe.

Nandini was startled as she heard the sound of the opening of door and Manik also disappeared. She moved her hand at her back and found that her dori was still open. She felt like crying on realising that she was imagining him. She composed herself when she saw Shivansh in the mirror. He was walking toward her taking slow steps.

“How can anybody look so beautiful always? Today I want the answer.” Shivansh spoke looking at her through the mirror while tying the dori of her blouse. Nandini was also looking at him. She was smiling from outside but inside her heart was crying. Every day she was breaking more for not loving his husband the way he loved her. Every day she was losing a part of her by leaving away from Manik. She was losing herself. The pain was killing her from inside.

He turned her toward himself holding her from shoulder. “Nandini, I want to tell you an important thing. After the party, I have to leave for a business trip. I will be back in a few days. After this business trip, we will go on our vacation. So be ready and decide the place.” She nodded at him in response, having a small smile on her face. Shivansh could see that she was sad and that’s was the only reason he was planning the vacation. He wanted her to be frank with him and start sharing her problems with him.

On the other side, Manik was drinking, sitting at the bar counter at the party. Lots of people were around him but he was still alone because the girl whom he loved, she was not with him. He had no idea that Nandini was also coming to the party and she also had no idea that Manik would be there in the party. Both were unaware that the god himself was planning to make them meet at the party.

So.. so.. Manan are going to meet each other after a long one month. What is going to happen at the party?

Shivansh is going on a business trip. What is going to happen in the absence of him? Any Idea.

Just buckle up and be ready for the roller coaster ride from the next part.

Stay blessed

Love Mehak

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39 thoughts on “Love Or Sin (Part : 15 Trying to Move On)

  1. The start of the chapter was likeba shock I didn’t understand first I thought ki I skipped something later I got to know that it was nandini’s nightmare
    Yayyyy!!! Manan are gonna meet❤️❤️❤️❤️

  2. 💃💃💃💃💃💃💃💃💃 Oh writer this is for you 🌷🌷🌷 for sending shivansh on business trip.. 😜😜😜 Yuppie manan is gonna to meet after 1 month.. 😍😍😍
    Superb update… 💕 💕

  3. Oh shiv sometimes ur this desperate feelings of friendship looking like lovey dovey relationship to me.. 🤣 🤣 🤣 U know what type of!! 😜😜😜

  4. Tujhe maza aata hai na humme rula kar kamini 😭😭😭

    Starting mai I was shocked for a sec I was like what the hell I just missed ye kya hua manik ka accident
    And fir pta chala ye toh nandu ka nightmare hai

    Aise koi krta hai kya bina baat ke heart attack De rh hai tu kamini 😤😤

    Shivansh kitna acha hai yr….. Kitna kuch kar rh hai manik ke liye
    Wo ready ho gy manik ke liye uss ladki se baat krne ke liye

    Wo kuch bhi krega manik ki khushi ke liye
    When shivansh was telling him that his love is not wrong
    I was just thinking ki iska kya reaction hoga jab usko pta chalega wo ladki koi aur ni uski khud ki wife hai

    And manik yr kitna suffer kar rh hai kitni koshish kar rh hai move on krne ki but chaha kar bhi nandu ko bhul ni Pa rh hai 😭😭😭😭
    Kyu suffer krna padh rh hai manik ko itna yr

    Why god is testing them so so much
    Shivansh kitni koshish kr rh th dono ko khush krne ki but usse kya pta manan ki khush ek dusre mai hai

    Wo kitni bhi koshish kar le unke pain ko kam ni kar skta
    Sirf manan hi ek dusre ko pain khatam kar skte hai

    It was such a painful scene when manik nandu ko imagine kar rh hai and nandu manik ko 💔💔

    Dono ka dil kitna dukhta hai ek dusre ke bare mai soch kar
    I am so excited and nervous to see ki kya hoga jab dono ek dusre se itne dino baat milege

    P. S stop making us cry…… Ek chotu sa cute and scene De De
    Dream sequence hi De De but kuch toh De

    Love
    Simi ❤

  5. MaNan😭 But Will This Trip Change MaNan Life? Mehak Update Was Amazing Yaar❤

  6. Seriously they don’t know anything yaar absolutely she is coming with her husband naa and manik is also there beacause he also a business man right but that was so awesome

  7. Allah.. I loved this story too much..😍😍

    What do i say??? I mean….. U take my breath away by ur beautiful writing, u describe pain n Emotion n even Emotional scenes made me Speechless Always..

    Ur an amazing writer n ur work is beyond words of praise..! Ur writing is so simple n i loved it alot.. 😘😘😘

    Oh my poor Heart n poor Manan kb tak suffer karenge.. Kb unka pain ease hoga 😔😔😔

    Liked this part more.. I so knew it that’s nandini’s bad nightmare.. Nd it was very horrible dream.. Dream ke bad nandini kya feel kar rhi hogi i so knew it.. Poor nandini kaise reh rahi n iss feeling ke sath not easy man 😣😣
    Nd iss horrible nightmare ne nandini ko or panic kar diya.. I knew it nandini shivansh ko call karegi coz vo aise restless rahegi jb tak pta nai chalta Manik is Alright..
    She is so sweet n sweet logo ke sth hi aisa hota hai.. 😓😓

    On the other scene Manik apna pain shivansh se share kar rha n i knew it shiv ko shock lagega..Shivansh Manik jis girl se love karta hai na vo pagalo ki tarah love karti hai Manik ko but Manik n nandini both guilt me hai..
    Manik mai tmse agree nai karti, love is not a sin, pyar kisi se bhi ho sakta hai…
    Nd shivansh better knows..

    I agree wid shivansh Love kabhi wrong nai hota n yes I am totally agree wid your opinion shivansh agr vo manik ke paas nai aayegi toh ye galat hoga.. Nd aise without love vo apne husband ko bhi cheat kar rhi but vo cheat nai guilt me hai so much guilt n unbearable pain 😣
    Yes shiv nandini bhut lucky hai manik usse jaan se jyada pyar karta hai…

    A standing ovation for shivansh he’s is such a Kind soul n true friend.. Shiv manik ko itne bhi pain me nai dekh skta.. Nd both r lucky.. Move On manik tm nai kar paoge.. Jitna dur jaane ki koshish karoge utna nandini ke paas aaoge manik..But this unbearable pain 😭😭 nd Shivansh naam sunkar sabse jyada pain tmhe bhi hoga so it’s better mat suno..
    Mai manik ko aise rote hue nai dekh skti 😭😭
    True friend every situation me saath dete hai.. Nd hats off shiv vo manik ko move on karne ke liye bhi ready ho gya.. Every moment shivansh manik ke sth hai hospital to home such a kind soul shivansh…
    Manik i know tm naam nai btaoge tmhare liye shivash ki happiness matter karti hai.. Mujhe nai pta shivansh ko pta chalega toh vo kaise react karega.. But this scene broke my heart mai manik ko rote hue nai dekh skti..
    Nd I so knew it nandini shivansh ko call zarur karegi vo reh nai payegi..
    Nd manik n nandini ka separation.. Ufff… I am like ab or kya galat hoga.. Sab toh galat ho gya nd I don’t want think ki Manik n nandini same time kya feel kar rhe honge.. 😣😣😣
    But Shivansh You never failed to amaze me by your kind n humble nature..

    Other side one second mujhe laga nandini sach me hai.. But no manik Hallucinating nandini.. Manik condition bit by bit worse hoti jaa rhi hai.. Move on itna easy nai hai manik.. But the pain he is going is unbearable n i think ye pain shivansh bhi ease nai kar skta..

    She is so much pain n guilt one side usse feel hota hai vo apne husband ko betray kar rhi n other side vo manik se dur bhi nai reh sakti..Manik ko toh pta hai ki nandini manik se love karti hai but poor soul she didn’t know that his feeling n If she wants she can say it to shiv that ki vo usse love nai karti but no still she guilt me reh rhi hai 😭😭..
    Vo shivansh ko ek chance dena chahti hai mind kuch or bolta hai or heart kuch or but mind or heart me win always heart hota hai 🙈

    Manik n nandini dono ke liye situation worse hai and it was both hallucinating 🤦‍♀.. I loved this scene nd manik finally almost fine ho gya.. But manik back routine par jaa rha smocking n all moving on is not a easy task.. Manik n nandini dono bechain hai 😭😭😭
    Apni heart kisi sunn lo manik please mai tmhe aise Or nai dekh sakti 😭😭

    The whole hallucinating scene, Manik’s praise, Nandu’s love – stricken and enjoying demeanour, their intense moment everything was Damn real 😓
    But no this is heartbreaking scene 😭😭
    Nd every second nandini Shivansh ko hurt karke guilt me jaa rhi hai..
    Shivansh no use nandini apne pain ke bare me share nai karegi.. Like manik ne mana kiya nandini bhi karegi..

    Wondering what will happen next jb manik n nandini one month ke bad party me milenge n I’m over excited nd nandini presence manik ke liye wonders create kar skta hai mujhe khushi hogi manik ko happy dekh kar like after ages..
    I am excited like 2 years old kid 🙈🙈🙈

    Manik n nandini’s relationship though complicated but their unconditional love n care for each other is something which make them Unique n captivated!!! Thank u for this brilliant story…

    This book was like an addiction to me.. 😍

    I’m so eager to know how they meet party
    Nd what will happen next..

    Thank u for long update.. The update was AMAZING.. No words how much I enjoyed it.. This book and every word written by you in it screams perfection.. I’m glad I got to read this masterpiece…

    Waiting to read next.. May Allah bless u ❤❤
    Take care..

    Gudiya 😍❤

    1. Aww.. Meri gudiya. This comment is pure bliss for me. I am happy that you are loving this story💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻. Party mein bhut kuch hone wala.. it will be unexpected ☺️☺️☺️🤭🤭🤭. And really loved your comment Meri gudiya. It is best and special for me like always.❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  8. Beautiful.. No words.. Their pain is too much but maybe they have to go through it to get love

  9. What an update like really what an update 😘😘…

    Everything was just written ao beautifully no I just can’t explain..🙈

    Seriously every chapter u wrote is always full of emotions and that’s the thing I like the most that your words just connect us to the story so deeply 💝💝that believe me pr won’t it always leave an impact on me and half of the day I keep thinking about this hehe 😘😘..

    Well MaNan 😍😭 gosh how much are they gonna suffer mahn… Enough of this no.

    Mancini’s dream I so knew it that it’s a dream but still it was so horrible..🙄… What she is feeling how she is living it’s not easy really not easy… At one point Shivanath said that if the girl loves Manik and is not saying anything then she is betraying her husband and Manik both but it’s not it.. How she is living it’s really not.. If she wants she can say it to Shiv ansh that yes she don’t love him but still she herself is living in guilt😭😭.. Bolne can understand het not even Manik is going through what she is… Coz atleast he knows that She loves Him but she toh didn’t even know that The guy whom she loves Loves her back..😭😭😭..

    It’s all just destiny…

    Well now m eagerly waiting for MaNan meet…

    And I hope something big happen in Shivanath absence..😂😂….

    All in all the past cannot be more amazing than this…

    It was just love..😘😘

    Thank you for this beautiful part di .💝💝

    Love😘

  10. It is very awesome…. An very eagerly waiting for the next update… 😍😍.. I love the way you write..

    1. Loving the story. I guess true love crosses all boundaries. The nostalgic feeling that someone holds your soul truly is something that makes it possible. Good story line. Keep it going.

  11. They are trying but in one way they both are cheating shivansh by keeping his hopes on

  12. Loving …loving …loving it 😍😍😍
    Awesome update
    Eagerly waiting for next

  13. Awesome update dear …..

    Shivansh friendship for manik no one can imagine ..

    Manik he is good frnd ……but the pain he is going is unbearable…

    Nandini i don’t know how to say she was is in so much guilt ….

    Totally u make me see the scenes infront of my eyes by ur writing skills .thank you so much dear.lots of love take care

  14. Really nice
    Waiting for manan to meet Nd see what happens once shivansh goes for trip
    Continue sooon

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